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I got banned from this game on 31 july 2011, I was banned from this game by getting caught using wallhack in a couple of tournaments, one of these was a TDM-tournament with prize money involved. And that was actually my motivation for using cheat at that time. To win the money, cause I really needed them.Thats the real truth. I played with aCtion in that tourney, and we beat 4Kings in the finals. Even though I was so desperate for money at the time, theres no excuse.
This doesn't really matter as well but im just gonna say it anyway; I got no money at all. Because I got banned before the money was even sent out. To be honest, the most shame I have over cheating was that I actually did this to team aCtion, i hurt their name and reputation in a really bad way. They are such awesome guys and they were the last one deserving what I did, I felt really bad about that and I still do.
This tournament was in June 2011, after we won this tournament, I stopped cheating completely. Because I was still good without cheats anyway and i didnt need it, i just wanted to guaruantee myself winning the money at the time. So I stopped cheating after that tournament, then about 40 days later CSI:QL (Draven and others) put up the "evidence" video against me. I realised they knew what was going on and I just decided to confess everything and confirm that it was indeed true. Alot of people were shocked of this, especially QL friends of mine who has played quake with me for about 8-10 years. They couldn't believe this. A really good IRL-friend of mine actually didn't want be my friend anymore. I introduced quake to this guy and helped him get good, he always looked up to me as the big daddy in quake. We had travelled to alot of Dreamhacks playing quake, starcraft. It was a very big deal to him, he still to this day doesn't want to talk with me.
I got pretty depressed over it, and realised how much I had fucked up. This game had always had a really big part of me, and I somehow seem to forgot how really important it was for me, just for some money. No one believes me but i'm so ashamed I still could do such a thing. It would never happen again with me.
Around 6 months after my ban. I had my first fake account that I shared with a friend. Im not going to reveal who this friend is. People have thought the accounts were entirely mine. But in fact we have shared every fake account i have played on. It was to get diffrent ips, to make me more untraceable and also as a for fun thing. These are the fakeaccounts we shared:
DancingQueen
Lobello
Lucky
Zyzz_brah
Luigo
I'm never gonna play on fakenicks again, because I hate it so much, I hate being anonymous. I hated to lie about who I was in order to not get banned so I could keep playing the game I loved for just a bit longer.
I never touched a single cheat since the day after that tournament in june 2011. I streamed while playing on Zyzz_brah and Lucky. You have no idea how much I love this game, so even if the rules tells me i cannot play this game, if you love the game you'll do what it takes to just touch it, just play it again once, even if its only for a week every 6 months.
So now it has been 2 and a half years pretty much exactly.
In 2014, i really hope i could get another chance in quake. just to get unbanned. I would never ever in this life throw that away, Im confident I could bring alot back to the community if im just given the chance.
I will probably never give this up, I just cant give up quake for this stupid mistake I did. People will just tell me to give up and quit, I dont care.
This doesn't really matter as well but im just gonna say it anyway; I got no money at all. Because I got banned before the money was even sent out. To be honest, the most shame I have over cheating was that I actually did this to team aCtion, i hurt their name and reputation in a really bad way. They are such awesome guys and they were the last one deserving what I did, I felt really bad about that and I still do.
This tournament was in June 2011, after we won this tournament, I stopped cheating completely. Because I was still good without cheats anyway and i didnt need it, i just wanted to guaruantee myself winning the money at the time. So I stopped cheating after that tournament, then about 40 days later CSI:QL (Draven and others) put up the "evidence" video against me. I realised they knew what was going on and I just decided to confess everything and confirm that it was indeed true. Alot of people were shocked of this, especially QL friends of mine who has played quake with me for about 8-10 years. They couldn't believe this. A really good IRL-friend of mine actually didn't want be my friend anymore. I introduced quake to this guy and helped him get good, he always looked up to me as the big daddy in quake. We had travelled to alot of Dreamhacks playing quake, starcraft. It was a very big deal to him, he still to this day doesn't want to talk with me.
I got pretty depressed over it, and realised how much I had fucked up. This game had always had a really big part of me, and I somehow seem to forgot how really important it was for me, just for some money. No one believes me but i'm so ashamed I still could do such a thing. It would never happen again with me.
Around 6 months after my ban. I had my first fake account that I shared with a friend. Im not going to reveal who this friend is. People have thought the accounts were entirely mine. But in fact we have shared every fake account i have played on. It was to get diffrent ips, to make me more untraceable and also as a for fun thing. These are the fakeaccounts we shared:
DancingQueen
Lobello
Lucky
Zyzz_brah
Luigo
I'm never gonna play on fakenicks again, because I hate it so much, I hate being anonymous. I hated to lie about who I was in order to not get banned so I could keep playing the game I loved for just a bit longer.
I never touched a single cheat since the day after that tournament in june 2011. I streamed while playing on Zyzz_brah and Lucky. You have no idea how much I love this game, so even if the rules tells me i cannot play this game, if you love the game you'll do what it takes to just touch it, just play it again once, even if its only for a week every 6 months.
So now it has been 2 and a half years pretty much exactly.
In 2014, i really hope i could get another chance in quake. just to get unbanned. I would never ever in this life throw that away, Im confident I could bring alot back to the community if im just given the chance.
I will probably never give this up, I just cant give up quake for this stupid mistake I did. People will just tell me to give up and quit, I dont care.
Edited by ZhuIsBack at 15:10 GMT, 1 January 2014 - 9946 Hits
I mean, the fact that you preferred to just turn on the webcam and record a video of you rambling about the first things that come to mind instead of actually writing your thoughts down like everyone else in order to make it easier for you to communicate with people, at the expense of a few extra minutes of your time, shows how lazy your approach was to the whole thing.
I think that's your main problem right there... you're lazy.
So yeah, for the benefit of everyone, just forget about the whole thing (Quake, ESR) and get on with your life. Or you can actually make an effort to post decent match analysis on a weekly basis for the next 6 months, ignore the flame, and see whether SyncError changes his mind. Begging and doing things half-assed won't get you anywhere. Even though most of zeroql's movies turn out to be 6/10s, he's actually doing the best he can.
Unless of course, you're just trolling and enjoy the attention... in that case, carry on, lol.