a month or two ago i decided to let my ql subscription expire. the decision was based on the painfully random-seeming game experience provided by the ql netcode. since then i've sworn an unrelated vow to refrain from playing video games until the year 2014, which due to some accident or catastrophe i may not even see.

i was wrong. the game isn't awful because of the netcode, it's just different. i grew up with games that required leading enemy positions with the crosshair, spending hours learning the rough precision necessary for a range of pings, from 200 on a good day to 350 on sometimes a better day but more distant server.

it is disappointing to me that the overall accuracy of the game is much fuzzier now, but the nature of creating a single state from two different states from two different places in two different times isn't a small task to tackle, and though i may have a preference for a certain approach to netcode, it doesn't mean that another approach is inherently worse because it doesn't meet my expectations or criteria for quality. am i too old to adapt?

i will be 30 years old on october 31, but i still have no idea who i am or what purpose something as comically inappropriate as my existence could serve. so far i've only been a tool in some others' kits, used in the construction of their secret dreams.

step 1: dream
step 2: work
step 3: ...
step 4: die

so yeah, i really wanna play quake.